Freedom for Freedom's sake.

In all my brokenness,
and for all the self-deprecation
and all the hate that is in me,
I will find Grace,
I will accept Grace, and I will pour out Grace,
in spite of my cynicism.

I will not be oppressed,
I will be free, I am free,
and I am so for freedom's sake.
Just as I am God's, I am free.

Free to Live,
Free to laugh,
And free to be
Free to enjoy God,
Enjoy Glory
Enjoy Grace
Rejoice in the One who,
Rejoices in me.

Rejoice
for the Lord is here
Here with me,
With you,
With us
In us.

In Him,
remember,
we are free,
yes you are free,
yes, yes we,
we are free.

Sirence is Golden

I have had the joy of having quiet time for the past three days in a row. This is really big for me, I wasn't every really a "quiet time" aka "conventional methods of faith" kind of person, especially when I started going to The Shack. But I guess God has changed my heart, and continues to do so. Having finally realized what I need to be doing, and actually doing it this time, I've finally gotten thursdays off for House Church. This is amazing and i'm so excited!

And aside from that benifit, I've had a lot more peace lately, and have just felt a lot better in general...

ps. if you haven't heard The Everybodyfields you shou.

Growth?

So, I think that I've kinda hit another notch in my spiritual growth, and I know phrasing it that way sounds as though i'm trivializing it but i'm not. And if God lets people know when this happens i apparently miss it. How I end up knowing is that my old routine of worship/prayer/scripture doesn't fill me like it use to, and then it hits me! "oh, God requires more from me now, I need to move on to more solid food" and just like everything else about our relationship He has to push me into it. I hope He sees me as comical...

And I think this is one of the reasons that I haven't been getting off work to go to Rio, it's because He is requireing more from me in my daily pursuance of Him. Because otherwise Rio is where I mainly pursue God, and I guess I need to step up my game. Which I can do, and am going to do right now.

Thanks for reading!

If I had made a list of the things I needed most tonight,

It would have been,
a wonderful book
a cd
cookies
a highlighter
a pack of gum
a bandaid
a pencil
a bar of soap
koolaid mix
all with encouraging verses of scripture,
and an encouraging letter telling me all the things I needed to hear.
in short: mencouragement; a bag of goods showing the love that I've always known was there, but am still glad to recieve none the less.
I haven't listened to the CD yet, I'm afraid I'm going to get emotional, and while I'm not afraid of geting emotional, I'd rather do it alone in my room. with out witnesses.
So Thank you girls of the Shack. You've no idea of the blessing you are and how much I needed this tonight. You may have just saved me from myself. (not in a suicide way, but in a self depricating way.) So once agian thank you, and I promise you all that it will be returned in short.