I need FOOD!

So, I had quiet times regularly for about a month once...
That's really all I have to say about that.

In related news I remembered a quote from a book tonight that challenges me in uncomparable ways. It's actually the book that I named this blog originally after, and it's where I get my url from too. It's called the perks of being a wallflower. this book changed my life. This is the quote "people accept the love that they think they deserve." it's the most adiquate, appropriate, and applicable statement I've ever read in any book.
This is another quote from another book that thousands of people have read. This book is called The Bible. The quote is "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. This statment is part of what we call the great commision. It's the first part, the second is to love your neighbor as yourself. That second part is what we most focus on, but tonight, the first really stuck out to me, and I realized that it is a very looked over passage because it is so familar to all of us followers of the way. but it is JUST as IMPORTANT as the second...if not more so. After all, we do follow a jealous God. But thankfully He is also very forgiving. Now, back to the original topic: I feel that I never really grasp that who concept of Loving God...I mean, it's not complex, but it's big...really really big.
I think that I'm going to try to grasp this, I'm going to try to Love my God with all of my being; heart, soul, mind, strength..all of it, also I'm going to really try to see and acknowledge my body as temple for the Holy Spirit.... I realize that these are big things, but honestly..I'm tired of milk.

Scripture// love

What is it about God's word that is so beautiful and at the same time so terrifying. I'm about to go off on this leadership retreat and realize that I have not read a word of scripture in almost a week.
I think it's the Truth that we find in scripture that is so amazing and so fearsome. The truth we find there reveals truths about ourselves. When we read His word and reflect on all God has done, all His work, His creation, and His sacrifices, and even more His promises, it provokes us to reflect on our work, what have we done, what have we sacrificed, how have we lived? And we grow to know and expect this from the Bible, and so sometimes it becomes the hardest book to read, even to open. Because between it's covers is reckoning, truth, freedom, and most fearsome of all, there is love. And Love holds the power to break, humble, reckon, tear down and build up, heal, make us new creations and give us a salvation from ourselves and our enemy. The scripture really is in it's essence: love. But we have to continue look at it as our freedom, even when that freedom comes at the price of personal sacrifice, and the pain of realizing how we have been living.

well

I was going to pray....
and that didn't work out. now I feel as though it would be pointless, and so maybe now is when I need to more than ever...but it's 6 in the morning, and I feel to tired and conformed to pray. I think I'm going to try anyways. After all, how else will I ever grow into the man that He wants me to be?

Hold my Heart

One tear in a driving rain,
One voice in a sea of pain,
Could the make of the stars,
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One live, is all I am,
Right now I can barely stand,
If You're everything You say You are.
Could you come close and hold my heart

So, Tenth Avenue North could be becoming a favorite if they keep putting out songs that make my heart cry.
I can relate to everything they write. It's weird. because parts of it are cheesey but I don't neven notice that when I'm in my car screaming it at the top of my lungs.
Love is a funny thing.
God, He's a funny guy.
Have a good Sunday readers.