And swelling up inside of us, there's this pride in us, this arrogance,

And our only line of defense is the sense that
Im not as half as bad as this friend of mine so I must be fine
We mean well don't we
Yet I've never seen good intentions set a man free

This break has, on the surface, in the normal, the flesh been amazing. The best i've ever had. seriously, i've seen a lot of good things happen.
But as far as my walk with the One whom i love with all of my heart. Substandard is and over statment. I have suffered, i decided that it would be more fun to walk my walk, not His. I was wrong. I mean, yes it was a lot of fun, i enjoyed it, but i also didn't ever go to sleep before 3 in the morning or later because i was afraid to talk to God b/c i knew He'd want to discuss things. Well, i thought He would anyways. I was wrong. I fixed things, righted my world again, gave in to my hearts True Desire. and He's being patient, He's waiting until I talk to Him.
Love. When will i truly understand that word. I've been trying to for a little over 5 months now, it's still escaping me. I'll find out one my facet of that word, and be so excited about it, that i'll forget another. It is a word that holds so much, will i ever truly understand it? B/c God says that to know Him, you have to know love. So if they are synonymous (sp?) than i can't understand love in its entirety.
Anyways, I'm speaking to God again, and listening, this is good. And yesterday was the best day of my life because of this......i rejoice because my sin does not eat me alive anymore, for i have a Saviour who i appreciate more because of my failures.
And if you're ever having a rough day, read Laurasis's blog