I feel like i've had a really good summer so far, but i think that's also because i've blocked myself off from what i need to see/feel. i think i've guarded my self because if i had actually been feeling and seeing what was actually going on in the past two or three months, i would have killed myself. Working so much and arguing with parents and going to school and having a lot of friends go through a lot of stuff, it was just too much and i didn't think i could handle it..
well that's crap and i could handle it and to an extent i did, i just pretended it wasn't as bad as it actually was, and now i feel like i didn't/haven't noticed what exactly my bestfriend and one of my other bestfriends and another really good guy friend of mine were going through and now it's kind of hit me in the face.
But i'm back..from outerspace??? (
no but srsly, i'm going to start being a real person again now.
and i just found out that my bestfriend wont be working at the bean and that sucks a whole lot. I feel like she should get dibs on a job there.
I also need to appoligize to her because a while ago she recomended every man's battle to me and i was like "Raahhh, i can't do that right now it's too difficult." when she's reading every woman's battle right now, i feel like i should be going through this with her? i dont' know if that's valid or if it's even healthy, but frankly, it's all i need, so i'm going to go get the book soon.
i'm also trying to get back into art..again...i feel like my artistic side needs to be exercised...
speaking of that, my body does as well, so i'm going to go do that.
:)
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I've spent the last several days debating in my head whether I like the idea of making 'bestfriend' one word, or keeping it two. There are also alot of associated peripheral questions I ask as well.
What can I say? Sometimes I think weird. Sometimes it's fun.
jak
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