If you could forget everything that i did,

then i would never lie

So things aren't really looking up, but i'm dealing with them better now. I have aquired the most amazing support system ever this summer. I think i would really die or go insane if i didn't have the friends i have and the God i have. With out those two things,....my life wouldn't be worth the energy i use up. But thankfully it is, b/c i have an Amazing God and glorious friends in abundance. I've gotten really close to some unsuspected people, and i think its b/c the people whom i've been close too for a while have been distant, not in the emotional sense, but in the physical literal sense. as in...far away. And i think it was a good thing this happened. B/c in my oppinion, you can never have enough bestfriends. And i do truly have many, and i don't think i could place any of them in any spots or order. b/c each one of them brings somthing different and wonderful to my life.
I'm going to have to get another job....and keep my job at the wired bean. I'm going to be working two jobs my freshman year of college.....i've got to be insane. But i think it'll help that two of my classes are hybrid, meaning that half my work is online, b/c i can do that at 2:30 in the morning if i have too.
I need to go back to church. i miss the shack a lot. And since God is the one holding my life/mind together at this point,....i need to go learn about Him and abide in Him and worship and praise Him.
God bless,
Love,
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