Shack on the Lake

Friday: i was apprehensive, anxious, my chest hurt from the tension i felt. Then we chilled and it was cool. Finally we worshiped. I layed down before my Lord and He put my emotions on the table, i sobbed, i mean, i have not cried like this in years and they were some of the best tears i've ever shed. I was so thankful for everyone around me and the love i could feel pooring out. Lou talked and bared her self to us, it was shocking and amazing and i comend and respect her so much for it. We played mafia, i sucked at first, second game i completely killed and won, third game i was narr. and tony and britt won and were amazing. Then i stayed up until 4 talkin to courtney and tony and God, i prayed against tempations and was delivered.
Saturday: Woke up sore, ate, had quiet time and rocked out to Obssesion. Learned how to chill and hear God, Had the most amazing game of sumo in my life and pulled a muscle. played more games and almost found jason, but was distracted by my impending asthma attack. We worshiped in song and it was the most amazing experience in my entire life, i have never felt comunity like that, we screamed and laughed and prayed out loud ( i was the first one to pray and God totally took care of me for that) and danced and i could once again, feel God's love spilling out of my Brothers and Sisters in Christ, four different times i looked at somone and God called out for me to pray for them so i walked to them, embraced them and prayed the words God gave me, God worked through me like i've never seen or felt before, we hear Garret talk, most of us cry, we all learn somthing, and then we go to the fire and talk and encourage and worship and pray and cry and hug. i walk back up to the house at 1 in the morning, we've been worshiping for 6 hours. i almost cry in amazment and gratitude.
Sunday, today: i am baptised i leave my sexual immoralities behind me, i leave my cynical hard heart behind me, i die to myself in that water, and lou pulls me up and i look down and can pratically see my self beneath the waves and i say hello to the new me, to the me that is centered in God and will love Him above all others. I sit before my computer now, a Man of Moments of Faith and am glad in it.
God you are so good and i am so not worthy.
Thank you God,
love.
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