I am constantly surrounded by the most mature, deep, fun, intelligent people, and it makes me feel like a child. I feel like i have so much to learn in order to become the person i want to become. (or need to become? i dont know.) I feel like i got out of highschool and was plunged in to a world that expected more out of me than i was ready to give. At first i handled it pretty well, then i didn't. I gave a lot, and then i ran out of stuff to give, i kept on depending on what I had to offer and that is sorely limited. I stoped letting God support me and give me strength. I stopped. Like in every positive aspect of my life..i stopped. And then i went back to shack and my life went.....BAM! and it's like my gears just got back in order. I don't think i've ever recovered this fast from a stumbling block like that. It's good to know that i have what it takes to change when i need to. After all of this, i feel slightly more confident that i don't suck as a child of God. B/c sometimes i really just can't accept that He loves me. I'm coming to understand the Unconditional part of His love more and more, but somtimes i still feel like i'm not enough. but those times are becoming less. I'm accepting more love than i have in a long time. From every where. My life is filled with really great people, and i'm realizing that more and more on a daily basis.
"we accept the love that we think we deserve." That is true, very true. and the more i love myself, and the less i hate myself and the more i let the Lord clean me out, the more love i accept from people.
This is good.
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