This is rediculous.

I feel like I'm making the right choice, but the worst mistake of my life.
This isn't right, but it's actually the best, the only, thing to do.
I'm sorry. This sucks, believe me, I know it more than ever now.
The single thing that has freed my entire life, now holds me back from you.
It'll pass, I promise. I hope. I pray.
Every night is followed by day.


this is a poem.
It's called "my sacrifice"
I gave somthing to God about five months ago, and now...that sacrifice is taking form, and i'm seeing it in the flesh. And it's absolutly one of the hardest things i've ever gone through.