Okay, so i'm not trying to get sympathy, i just need to express this.
I'm breaking down. My sanity is now so thin, i think i may just jump out of my window. (it's low to the ground so i wont die, but it'll be somthing drastic, it may help) I mean, i really need a break, and if the shack over nighter doesn't help me get one, i really am going to jump out of a window. I need God, I need time, and I need space. I need to have just like one freaking minute to adjust to the fact that i'm going to school and carrying a part time job and need to go to church and at some point see my friends. Next to God, my friends are the most important part of my life, and they are being taken away from me. I'm about to snap.
I just really need some time to figure things out. my parents are NOT giveing me that. They have been yelling at me since i starte school. It's like as long as i pay them back, remain a 3.0, and do the friggin dishes, it doesn't matter if i break, or if i go insane or if i just die from exhaustion. As long as those three things happen, life for them, is good. This isn't really how they feel, but it's how they act. and sometimes, know the two are different in your mind is very different from knowing it in your heart.
At this point, i can't win, and can't give up, so i just have to get beat until the ref thinks it's been enough.
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Thank you my friend, and all I can say is I told you so...
Oh and probably see you soon
PS i need your numba
hi i love you. and you can do all of this, and not have to jump out of a window. but if you do jump ill help you get up and brush the gravel off. promise.
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